Another wonderful statement courtesy of my mom :)
I felt super happy and at peace when I got home from my first day back at the studio! Then, about 40 min later I felt nervous again because my skin felt a bit stretched and sore around the biopsy site. The paranoid, illogical thought entered my head "oh no what if I cause further damage from exercise"...Over the past couple weeks, two leading heptalogists have reassured me this is not possible, and that exercise still is good for me.
But it's weird to have something brewing inside that I can't feel or sense.
Every time weird thoughts and fears pop up, or when I have a minute to meditate, I ask for strength to complete the tasks I'm here to do and for power to serve my people. I ask for sight to see what others need and humility to give it. I ask for compassion for myself and for others. I pray.
Things will feel normal again after a few weeks, I'm sure of it, and I will remember "oh heck yeah my body can do stuff and I didn't break"! Till then, I can have funny escapades in "what weird things will my head come up with it"? Stay tuned...
awww lil c! glad she's there with you. love you guys!
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